5 Minutes of Fabulous: This one is for all the scaredy cats
I don’t know about you, but I get scared all the time.
After 18 years of being on synthetic hormones aka the birth control pill, I decided to quit the pill earlier this year. I made the decision after an entire year of thinking about it, meditating on it, and listening to the “whispers” of wisdom from within to give my body a chance to have a natural, healthy period. I’ll be honest, the journey off the pill hasn’t been easy.
Over the last couple of months, I’ve experienced aches and pains I’ve never felt before. I’ve looked and felt so bloated that all you’d have to do is attach a basket to me and I’d become the chicest offering of a hot balloon ride over the city of Los Angeles. I’ve cried, laughed, and then sobbed during a 40-minute session in front of my vanity mirror popping what feels like 18 years’ worth of acne. The changes have left me feeling downright shook. Terrified at the idea that pain is my birthright and that my gorgeous, colorful clothes are only meant to fit two weeks out of every month. Full transparency, I’ve never felt uglier or fatter.
I feel scared that my body isn’t good enough to do what it’s supposed to do. Can you relate?
Someone recently told me that if you flip letters in the word scared that you end up getting the word s a c r e d.
This, of course, got me thinking about how scared I’ve been about the changes my body’s been going through when in reality, it’s an extremely sacred time.
The bloat is sacred because it’s my body telling me that she needs ginger tea, homemade veggie soup, a heating pad, a warm bath, and deep rest. The acne is sacred because it’s the evidence that toxins are leaving my body by any means necessary. The aches and pains are sacred because they are signs of change, signs that I’m alive, and a reminder that I made a brave choice to uncover what the birth control had been hiding all these years.
I’m a work in progress. We all are. Instead of being scared of our progression, maybe we can learn to recognize how valuable and sacred it is?
Take a moment to scan your body. How have you been feeling? What body parts are speaking to you? What does your body need from you? If the answers scare you just know that feeling scared is an opportunity to honor the sacred.
Love you always.