5 Minutes of Fabulous: This One Goes Out to All the Hustlin' Boss Babes in da House
I'll start off by letting you in on a little secret, I am confident and I am insecure (AF btw). We are not just one thing, we are everything and we have a range to play.
I know who I am today and I’m on a life-long journey to know myself better. With that being said, I’ve got a story to share with you about how I'm a serious work in progress.
Walking into my office this week, as my heels clanked down the hallway, I silently said my affirmations “I am capable. I am worthy. I am grace, elegance, abundant, and fabulous. I got this!”
Shortly after settling in at my desk, with my lemon water and ease, I found out that a colleague with the same title and job as me got a promotion.
I had a major WTF moment.
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for said colleague and genuinely believe that they are deserving, but had to ask “WHY the fuck NOT ME?” I know I’m not alone here, right?
I went from being the Kween of Confidence to totally insecure in less than10 seconds. I was angry, disappointed, and jealous. Yup, keepin it real here.
I am a woman who can live in grace while also being a woman who wants to cut a bitch and storm off. And honestly, I don’t want to hide that anymore. I am accepting the good and bad feelings because they are all part of who I am.
In full transparency, I’m super bummed to not be acknowledged by my company for my hard work and resilience on the job. After having some time to marinate on it and use some “mood- shifting” techniques, I got some clarity.
Let’s pause for a second, curious about mood shifting? I bet you are! Mood shifters are my jam because I can get real moody (ask my boyfriend).
Mood shifters= activities/things that you know will always turn your frown upside down. Some of mine are turning off my phone, slinking around in my bathrobe, watching a movie, letting myself cry, drinking a soothing warm beverage, dancing.
So, I got some clarity and realized that I’m the only person that has to be with myself every second of every goddamn day. Do I love myself less because my job title is still the same as it was last year and the year prior? Heck No!
What I know to be true is that I can be insecure, jealous, and sad. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m still a hustlin’-ass female executive in corporate America. I work my butt off and I also live a colorful life filled with fun, beauty, and connection.
I fill myself up outside of work so that I can show up as a boss bitch with a fabulous attitude on the daily. I focus on growing deep, genuine relationships with my clients and colleagues, because I know how important connection is to my own happiness.
Honestly, a promotion or lack there of can’t change all those things about who I am as a person and they never will.
Can you feel me, babes? Has this ever happened to you? Do you reject your dark feelings? Do you soldier on when all you really want to do is cry? Have you ever considered that your dark feelings may actually make you shine more in life?
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